Portugal and Cristiano

i need this month to hurry up a little. this holiday is almost a quarter of the year and its just too long for me to be stuck in the house like this!

looking back, my last post was on the 10th of december 2010! and how time has flown by!

im astounded by the recent response via comments ive ben getting for the blog
thanks everyone out there.
it would be nice to have names to comments so please do write your names ..its better than being labelled anonymous. thanks once again.

hm uni life is seriously too busy to be writting it up on here...but ill do it once i get a breather in from the hectic lifestyle...its so close to that of a real life working architect. very exciting ..

i find reading horoscopes almost fascinating ..to read them is to be knowing the future without living it and perhaps even plan on how and what can be done to prevent events or perhaps even just be that little bit cautious.

some beleive them, other think they are rubbish but in my opnion those who do not beleive in them are being ignorant...to the truth.
those who do not beleive in god. or some kind of eternal power..are also being ignorant. to beleive in something that cannot be seen or felt..is to beleive in ones self.
how are you to beleive you will suceed in life..when you have not suceeded already...beleive in this eternal power and your beleif in anything else. ei sucess shall come naturally...

to beleive in an eternal power is to beleive in the unseen..and so your dreams and aspirations become so much more easier to beleive in ....

there is an increase in ignorance and people are being more and more unaccepting of the facts ,the truth. and off others around them and so the violence, the wars, the hatred and blood shed. theres nothing more to it. Acceptance is the key

...cant wait to get university started and underway.
then again ..i have this deep dark emotion running through me which ceases to stop..................this sense of sadness.
i pretend i dont care and that ive gotton over it..but i havent.
daily life continues but i havent forgotton ..memories of lisbon are killing me from within

..i love things to be planned. i wonder sometimes will i be able to find someone.im talking about a soul mate..who understands me the way i am. this must be the first time im talking about finding someone like this...CR..ha. in my wildest most unbleleivable dreams ..and even then not..

just found out one of my mates from lisbon is getting married. :S ..my ages ..damn. how.can. she.
even the thought suffocates me. eeeekkk.no no no.no way. in hell on a personal level.

:)

dont you just love it when your favourite song comes on the radio or music channel..TERI ORE teri ore teri ore...teri ore teri ore...

went to prizegiving yesterday and felt pretty wierd.and still do. it seemed as though the end of some long journey. it was so long and complicated that only the very recent aspects of it were remebered..
it was sad and at the same time i was feeling happy.
i felt as though i was in some kind of trance, was it really me who had acheived the acheivements for which i was being praised for by others, my teachers...hm
i feel as though im good for nothing and its like...hm. was it really me who did allthat work? was it really me who understood those thoeries.

the wierdest thing was that i was seated in pretty much the same place as where i took my last exam i nthe great hall. and that just..remineded me of so much..the whole exams saga and who and what and why and where all over again. i remebered my revision leave...

Bitter Sweet Moments.

upon returning back home i felt a sense of uncontent so i couldnt go to sleep even though my eyes were so very tired and hurt so very badly. a sense of content uncontent. an empty wholesome feeling...tingling out of happiness today morning i feel proud of myself.

well after months of deliberation yesterday had about an inch of my hair cut..lol
it was one of these thingsi would avoid, but my hair was getting out of control..abit to long. it reached my wait :S

does anyone find eyeliner ticklish? ha. i do and its annoying.ticklish in painfull sensation wise. urgh

well just had a local grocery shop morning with my mother and to complete the trip i did get ot use my umbrella that i was carrying around all throughout my journey due to a moderate shower. its got me wet and im dressed for tonights awards evening at college so had to blow dry the hair again much to my annoyance.

as for university, its getting close, induction.enrolment week and the nerves are building up now. all that confidence suddenly evaporated and im even scared for tonight at awards.

im tired, im really very tired. my eyes hurt alot on a queer sort of way so i gave up on the long hours on the laptop and mobile phone for some days.