okay so when i heard cristiano was moving (finally) i was struck.
quiete literally i just sat still, not able ot beleive that it happened without a final notice, i mean last year i was seriously ready for him to move, i actually thought he might move but he didnt to my releif.
i swaer my world went upside down when i read this on google news and then bbc then sky, then the tv...my mouth went dry and my mind whent blank,,,so bloody cliched and yet so present here....for somtime in the morning i was sad and upset...etc...
now i cry at the thought.,....of having a large gapping hole in my heart and then when i think about manchester a place that i had funnily come to like and my fan girl mind had obviously dreamt many fan fictions up in alderly egde....that place manchester makes me upset....too
there was a day when cristiano came with his table clothe of a t shirt with his wonky teeth and weird hair, and then theres today....so much happiness at his arrival and soo much .....so many tears now.....then theres today...probably the last time here will be soo mcuh coverage on every channel on "cristiano ronaldo".....the last time....
i feel rather selfish now...i took soo much inspiration from him in the six years that i dont want him to go now when he is going perhaps for his own good. i want him to stay here....share the similarities of living in england....#
i loved watching him on tv, the few times a season i even got to watch him....close ups of his face, his feet...i now dont know how im going to over come this......
thinking nostaligically .i swaer makes things seem so ....teary...but when i think of cristiano and kaka playing at madrid side by side.....my mind flourishes. the sun the villas the alomost portuguese lifestyle....omg...
i suppose i shouldnt be so selfish and marrow minded...cristiano is going to such a cool place,,, to showcase his talent trully to the heart of europe.!!
i loved him soo mcuh i didnt ever think about ...after he has decided to leave,,,just that he would leave one day...that day being today......one day before second year college work starts....
hes been a charm to me...a lucky charm....he is a charmer...
all i know is that ...hes going ,...to play for real madrid...perhaps his real dream (i dont know) and i love him alot...alot ....alot..
xxx
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