oh gosh. its heartache again. when the tears are there and endanger you of bursting if they accumulate to high levels. arghh.
i have two actually and i love the interchangability! the beads are making me go ;mad;;;; like wowing at them all the time,...,,and i love my new pet turtle. hes so adorable!
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going through a transition period in life is no joke.
and this is one of them ..the move from college to university [i need chips right now] is probably another one of those mammoth leaps and im leaping right now? ha.
not only that but ties up loose ends, art work collection, new people, new bonds, prizegiving...and to top things off hows about a birthday party...with dress code BLACK.
BLAck?
black?
blsskfnack?
um yes black . its been almost a year since i gave up on aLL and yes i really do mean all black clothes, not a single piece of black clothing has been worn by myself since a about last summer! and now black. ok
ok
ill wear it...its dress code! like uniform . no choice.
actually this could be more fun....ITS A BLACK SARI EVENT!!! [with sari belt obviously]
and this is one of them ..the move from college to university [i need chips right now] is probably another one of those mammoth leaps and im leaping right now? ha.
not only that but ties up loose ends, art work collection, new people, new bonds, prizegiving...and to top things off hows about a birthday party...with dress code BLACK.
BLAck?
black?
blsskfnack?
um yes black . its been almost a year since i gave up on aLL and yes i really do mean all black clothes, not a single piece of black clothing has been worn by myself since a about last summer! and now black. ok
ok
ill wear it...its dress code! like uniform . no choice.
actually this could be more fun....ITS A BLACK SARI EVENT!!! [with sari belt obviously]
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im sitting here quite annoyed with myself for mistakenly deleting enomous amounts of my "pictures" folder on my laptop!! its fortunate that some of it is still on back up on the pc...like my CR photo collection and other such files. the recyclying bin is somewhere that does exit on the laptop, but its like literally jumping in to a rubbish bin!
yesterday, i purchased another cybershot, to replace the former cybershot, which i have to say really did keep up with ,my rough tough life ...school and college bag adventures. so many good memories were captured and had with the sony d35 that yes some how im going to miss its touch...
but d350 is....a pleasure to use :smile detection, priority adult and children face detections, clever features which adapt to the scene and situation...its quite cool.
...other than that. some horrible sleep less nights, days when i want to go out and just walk..walk..walk like the lands end...#
some creapy dreams lately...and nightmares even..waking me up at 10pm to leave me exhausted for the follwing day after i finally find sleep in the early hours of the morning..
excitement builds for university and loan and grant money is eagerly awaited...shopping and such trips....most certainly already planned...
for today im ust happy i can see the blue sky , even though its dotted with the odd clouds. yes its england, and yes i see blue sky. [finally]
yesterday, i purchased another cybershot, to replace the former cybershot, which i have to say really did keep up with ,my rough tough life ...school and college bag adventures. so many good memories were captured and had with the sony d35 that yes some how im going to miss its touch...
but d350 is....a pleasure to use :smile detection, priority adult and children face detections, clever features which adapt to the scene and situation...its quite cool.
...other than that. some horrible sleep less nights, days when i want to go out and just walk..walk..walk like the lands end...#
some creapy dreams lately...and nightmares even..waking me up at 10pm to leave me exhausted for the follwing day after i finally find sleep in the early hours of the morning..
excitement builds for university and loan and grant money is eagerly awaited...shopping and such trips....most certainly already planned...
for today im ust happy i can see the blue sky , even though its dotted with the odd clouds. yes its england, and yes i see blue sky. [finally]
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Short as it was and now even we miss it but truth is college took the piss sometimes, the busses,the homework not forgetting the coursework the never ending exams, the stress and then even the bloody retakes...the teachers, the other students..the library and the silent study...oh and then MEGS all hell i hated that...no trips, no real assemblies or gatherings...just canteen times and making eyes at each other.
Our beloved blue corner though it would never beat the green bench; its beauty and location, it still heard our laughter, pleas, complaints, dreams and aspirations...... .....those long drives on either side, university shop trips and victoria park picnics walks and escapes.. ...i miss that place so bad!
Our beloved blue corner though it would never beat the green bench; its beauty and location, it still heard our laughter, pleas, complaints, dreams and aspirations...... .....those long drives on either side, university shop trips and victoria park picnics walks and escapes.. ...i miss that place so bad!
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and im breathing a deep sign of releif as im accpeted in to the architecture course at university ...after recieving my results today!!!
theres only one actualything i want to thank.
and thats that eternal power whom we all see differently through religion .i know its there or today would really not have been possible.
thank god!
theres only one actualything i want to thank.
and thats that eternal power whom we all see differently through religion .i know its there or today would really not have been possible.
thank god!
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today as results day drews ever closer, theres a real sense of sincerity growing within me.
im scared, frightened, fear ; the metallic sort that starts in my throat and spread like a poison throught my body, making my legs shake and my heart beats skip and summersault.!
fear, the type i feel before the physics exam...the crying type of fear where no one but your self can helf its self...
i try to convince myself, i have 2/3's of the results already, im only waiting for the other 1/3rd...but the determination to get a hundred percentage sucess and content wreak havoc within me, starting off panic attacks and the sort...
the dream could very well start...in a couple of days, falling short of it will be a real heartbreaker!
im scared, frightened, fear ; the metallic sort that starts in my throat and spread like a poison throught my body, making my legs shake and my heart beats skip and summersault.!
fear, the type i feel before the physics exam...the crying type of fear where no one but your self can helf its self...
i try to convince myself, i have 2/3's of the results already, im only waiting for the other 1/3rd...but the determination to get a hundred percentage sucess and content wreak havoc within me, starting off panic attacks and the sort...
the dream could very well start...in a couple of days, falling short of it will be a real heartbreaker!
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i need to see the so called meteor showers tonight if they are still around as i do need to make a good few wishes. they could come in handy at this crucial time in life. ...
if i were in lisbon i would have viewed them from an amazing torrel or somthing or other by now, the night sky looks ever so beautiful over there...the river, the other side of the river, planes landing, their sound as they fly over..amazing...and then these stars shooting...damn it i feel so underpriviledged!
if i were in lisbon i would have viewed them from an amazing torrel or somthing or other by now, the night sky looks ever so beautiful over there...the river, the other side of the river, planes landing, their sound as they fly over..amazing...and then these stars shooting...damn it i feel so underpriviledged!
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ever felt like when you look into the mirror you see someone else, not yourself? my inner self seems to look and feel so much different to what i see in the mirror sometimes.
hmm. the diary of events seems to be getting busier at this time of the year as results day is now less than a week away, art work collection (now this is something im really not looking foreward to as the family car i think will be packed to the boot door with large scale models, portfolios and other more irregular shaped art peices..then theres prizegiving..still need to think of what im going to wear to this place. it becomess a difficult task to choose what kind of look one may want when in fact ive been attending college in smart dress for the past 6 months now..so what kind of smart dress now.....initial thoughts of a skirt are now quickly on diminishing point. which i am very annoyed with. as a female i dont know whats wrong with me, whats the shame in wearing a skirt but i guess we are too used to wearing the trousers..
..oh and then theres enrolement week for university, thats if results days is any sucess..which i dearly hope and wish it is.
hmm i hope the party starts from then on. today i got the biggest feeling of wanting to meet new people, increase the friends circle towards national and international people, coming out of the hiding place to meet greet, share and see what others have to say, do and are about!....so i guess bring it on.cus im ready for it.finally the minds opened up.
hmm. the diary of events seems to be getting busier at this time of the year as results day is now less than a week away, art work collection (now this is something im really not looking foreward to as the family car i think will be packed to the boot door with large scale models, portfolios and other more irregular shaped art peices..then theres prizegiving..still need to think of what im going to wear to this place. it becomess a difficult task to choose what kind of look one may want when in fact ive been attending college in smart dress for the past 6 months now..so what kind of smart dress now.....initial thoughts of a skirt are now quickly on diminishing point. which i am very annoyed with. as a female i dont know whats wrong with me, whats the shame in wearing a skirt but i guess we are too used to wearing the trousers..
..oh and then theres enrolement week for university, thats if results days is any sucess..which i dearly hope and wish it is.
hmm i hope the party starts from then on. today i got the biggest feeling of wanting to meet new people, increase the friends circle towards national and international people, coming out of the hiding place to meet greet, share and see what others have to say, do and are about!....so i guess bring it on.cus im ready for it.finally the minds opened up.
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finally i am feeling well enough to sit at the laptop long enough to give an account of my recent trip to lisbon...
well i did want to get away, but what was on my mind was to get more "material" for the summer project, investigate lisbon in a different way, analyse it, record it in another manner from past trips. i think out of all the trips was was the most "commercial"...the emotions and feelings and thoughts of childhood ceased to exist and all i wanted was the material coming in from what ever the experience whether it be photos or videos, postcards or souvenirs...everything had to have a result...no wasting time. every trip, ever step every minute had to be spent wisely. what has the united kindgom and myy college courses done to me..a heartless girl i felt at times, scouring the city like a shameless national looking for things all the time to make every minute worthwhile.
it was those breif times with family memebers, visit of the site where my former home had been and encounters with certain people and areas that evoked the slight emotion....iron woman. finally not crying at the aiport as we left......perhaps england now has some kind of attachment, or growing up..18 years of age changes you to accpet change in a less dramatic way.
going to the beach i still remember as my skin is now peeling in certain places and i have a very nice tan in the shape of my swimwear in my back......
well i did want to get away, but what was on my mind was to get more "material" for the summer project, investigate lisbon in a different way, analyse it, record it in another manner from past trips. i think out of all the trips was was the most "commercial"...the emotions and feelings and thoughts of childhood ceased to exist and all i wanted was the material coming in from what ever the experience whether it be photos or videos, postcards or souvenirs...everything had to have a result...no wasting time. every trip, ever step every minute had to be spent wisely. what has the united kindgom and myy college courses done to me..a heartless girl i felt at times, scouring the city like a shameless national looking for things all the time to make every minute worthwhile.
it was those breif times with family memebers, visit of the site where my former home had been and encounters with certain people and areas that evoked the slight emotion....iron woman. finally not crying at the aiport as we left......perhaps england now has some kind of attachment, or growing up..18 years of age changes you to accpet change in a less dramatic way.
going to the beach i still remember as my skin is now peeling in certain places and i have a very nice tan in the shape of my swimwear in my back......
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Just tell me what do you want from me,
This is love in the first degree,
Tell me why, everytime I feel your eyes all over me.
Tell me what do you want from me,
Are you mad enough to see,
That its hard to cross the line,
Come on now, set me free.
What do you want from me.
Cauz I'd show, your love is a hero,
We will run, run out of sight.
This is love in the first degree,
Tell me why, everytime I feel your eyes all over me.
Tell me what do you want from me,
Are you mad enough to see,
That its hard to cross the line,
Come on now, set me free.
What do you want from me.
Cauz I'd show, your love is a hero,
We will run, run out of sight.
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this video has made me laugh a good few times...that guy looks like someone..
;)
"YOUR LOVE IS A HERO"
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hmm.much of what she says is so true in so many ways, what i love the most is that its got that amazing beat which means its makes me smile and even makes me want ot dance... even on such lyrics.! :D
and no i really dont think Rascal Flatts is better at this song....its belongs to Cascada now..!!!!! :)
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